RIOT IN THE SKY

I got this back in May. If you want to know what it means, read The Alchemist

I love my job.  Who the hell wouldn’t?  I have the best co-workers in the world.  Many of them have seen me grow within the program since I was 15.  Mentors become colleagues become friends become drinking buddies become dance partners become bodyguards become family become blood become everything all in one.  I am blessed.  Going to work everyday feels like chilling with the homies.  My role consists of designing & running the brand new Literacy Program, building social media efforts, mentoring in video/film production, youth development/empowerment and one-on-one counseling in writing, developing the power of thoughts, effective communication & post-graduate planning/senior transition.  Every day I am surrounded by over a hundred fresh, young, bright, talented minds and everyday I am inspired.

I love my job. I am grateful for it.  But I hate structure.  I hate knowing how much my paycheck will only be in 2 weeks.  I hate knowing where I’ll be sitting in three months.  I hate structure telling me where I’ll be and how much I can only achieve.  I’m not dissing anything or any lifestyle.   To each his/her own.  Everyday I’m learning more about the person I am becoming and I freakin’ hate structure. I feel so confined.  I’m a shepherd dammit. There is definitely immense value in stability and financial security. I don’t take it for granted.  But on a personal tip, I’d rather not know where I’ll be in 3 months or how much I’ll be making in 6 months.  I want to believe that possibilities are boundless so maybe I’ll be a millionaire by March and I’ll be chilling on the moon   Who the hell knows and that’s okay to me.  Anything can happen at any moment and I’m open to it.   I trust that as long as I continue to make choices from a genuine, honest place, each move will lead me to another positive place and so on.  As long as I continue to create, to give and take risks, I trust returns will come—whether in the form of money, opportunities or relationships.

As much as I love my job and all the people I’ve met through it, I’ve made the decision to leave Artists For Humanity at the end of the summer.  Maybe in the future I will return for a longer duration.  But for now, I am young and restless and have much to learn/discover in my personal mission.  I cannot stay in one place for too long.  Shepherds gota go where shepherds go. To avoid complacency, safe comfort and becoming compartmentalized in this plastic wrap society, I gota keep it moving.  In the words of Hov, “ON TO THE NEXT ONE.”

I am truly thankful for all the people in my life who continue to support, motivate and inspire me.

I’ll keep you posted on my future plans.  Change is on the horizon.

Love,
Sahra

P.S. This is partly why I’ve been quiet on the radar lately.  I had to clear it with the boss before I could connect with you all.

P.S.S. I am now taking suggestions for cities to crash/relocate.  A couch and water access preferred.